Maybe if you isolate one thing that seems to bother you most, whether it's about the world around you or within you, then you can better (and we can better) understand how to assess/treat it.
I think it's great that you have come here, it means you are already in the process of trying to understand yourself, which will only ever lead to better things.
I don't really know what bothers me so much. Mostly the fact that my life bores me. And digging into my brain seems entertaining for now.
boredom does stink.
what do you see yourself doing/being in the future, if anything?
I don't know what I want to be.
I've tried to think about the future, but I can only seem to focus on one day at the time.
When I try to think about the future I end up with the idea that I don't have one.
i feel that those who live one day at a time tend to be the ones who are or will one day be more content with their understanding of themselves, so i don't think that's a bad thing.
at your age i didn't even know what future meant so i'm with you there, but here i am ten years later.
it's funny that you're 15, that's the age i started to write. i wrote down everything i was feeling, what made me angry, what i observed about the world. it was me beginning to understand the world as i saw it with my eyes, not with my parent's eyes.
another poster mentioned the ego. I think some parents build up the ego of the child at the expense of teaching them about the world, which is a mistake often.
I think the key to feeling more of a whole (as opposed to a mixed up thing of fragmented pieces of what people tell you), is to see the world as it really is, and always always ask questions. questioning everything is both enriching and essential. you will be a very interesting person and people will see it, it's refreshing.
but digging into your brain is only half of it. It's also about watching the world and seeing where you fit in, where your strengths are, where you excel.
these are just random thoughts but there you go.
since you wanna dig into your brain, why not read up on human biology. the reasons for why we are the way we are, and do what we do are in there.
it's very fascinating, and self-knowledge is empowering.
Right now I have to go to school.
I'll reply when I get home.
I have some things to say to what you wrote.
I had fun today.
Sort of, maybe.
I wasn't bored for too long, made me a bit happy, maybe.
I don't know if I'm okay with trying to figure out if something's 'wrong' with me.
I finally spoke to my dad today, it's been about 3 years since we actually talked. He told me he's always felt the same way, and that it's okay as long as I don't let people into my actual thoughts. Seems like not such great advice, but I should trust him for once since I don't normally trust anyone.