And I respect everything you said. But it still doesn't change the fact that people go to jail for this. How could i do such a thing. I only had the luck of not being caught. The pain in my chest is so great I actually feel my heart is going to stop this very minute. I would go and see a therapist but I am afraid and ashamed. :(
I want to forgive myself but I'm not sure I have the wright. If it's illegal and you are saying to me these things sometimes happen. Who should I listen to???????? The anxiety about the whole thing is getting a kick out of me. It hurts so much.
I wasn't planning on replying outside my own thread on this forum, but i kinda want to reply to this one.
You're worried about it being illegal? Who cares if it's illegal. Apparently you have emotional problems surrounding this, i wouldn't worry about framing it as a criminal issue, too. They ain't tapping your phone, what are you worried about? It's not like you sit around the dog park in an unmarked van with a bag of treats in your lap. Do you?
Of course you have the right to not care about it, you're the only one who does care about it. Go ahead and go find a cop on the street and turn yourself in, tell him what happened and see how quickly he tells you to go away.
Wanna get over it? Get a dog. The biggest one you can find. Bring it home, and if you can manage not to molest it then you're normal, and you can stop worrying about it.
But if you've got kids, watch them. Sometimes kids get curious about physical bodies and don't know any better. Because they are children. And sometimes children will do things that adults would never do, and might find it embarrassing when they become adults and start worrying about things they did when they were, again, children and didn't know any better.