I want to forgive myself but I'm not sure I have the wright. If it's illegal and you are saying to me these things sometimes happen. Who should I listen to???????? The anxiety about the whole thing is getting a kick out of me. It hurts so much.
It is not about having the right to forgive yourself, but a question of understanding what Doctor Robert said. Remember that this is a man who has years of experience in dealing with human development, human sexuality, and human suffering. Remember also that he is a trained and credentialed professional who has studied these subjects deeply. In other words, GoneBad, it is time to stop putting your faith in all the ignorant moral judgments you have been taught (sexual pleasure is bad, for example), and instead listen to the words of an expert:
"Children who are just coming into puberty often experiment sexually in various ways, including playing around with animals. This kind of play with animals is not necessarily "bestiality," as it would be when carried out by an adult, but more often the kind of innocent exploration, akin to masturbation and playing doctor, needed by all children in order to come to terms with their growing sexual needs." [italics are mine]
And I respect everything you said. But it still doesn't change the fact that people go to jail for this. How could i do such a thing. I only had the luck of not being caught. The pain in my chest is so great I actually feel my heart is going to stop this very minute. I would go and see a therapist but I am afraid and ashamed. :(
See the therapist. You need it. Believe me. And people do not go to jail for what you did. That is ridiculous.
You made me laugh.
And I didn't laugh for a while now.
I get it. I'm just one of those "overwhelming guilt people". I reject religion and God and heaven but act like I want to be first in the line for all of those things.
p.s. and Renee - Bestiality is illegal to my knowledge.