I'm sorry, i can't read that. (+1 pointless post)
Hey, whaddaya know, neither could I. Maybe it was all those oddly placed commas? (+2 pointless posts)
I think you shouldn't worry about the future. Today is enough for today. Be happy with what you have, be blessed with your children and a man who loves you. Don't feel obligated to the man unless he's obligated to you. Think of him as a boyfriend.