But that IS your personality, fluent, adaptive and ever changing. There is no set personality, that was what i was trying to convey. Is there something wrong with that? Do you need a constant to function? Personally, i'm fine with it, perhaps i wont be later in life but it's just my opinion. :)
*thinking*
I don't know if there's anything wrong with that or not. I never considered it. I thought I was supposed to have a me. I'm pretty sure I'm supposed to have a me. >.>
Somehow I don't want to believe that is true. That would make you an empty shell. None of you come across that way to me.
I am smart enough to conceptualize and verbalize some very esoteric things.
There are many people who describe me as an old soul (whatever the hell that is) and more than a handful who think I'm highly empathic. All of that is ridiculous. I am just perceptive. Nothing more.
I see patterns - whether it's in a differential equation or in human behavior. That is just what I do.
As Hexi says quite rightly, (neither he nor) I would come across that way to anyone.
Unfortunately, just because I see the pattern and can mimic it does not mean I can feel it. To feel, I must work hard to internalize the pattern and, much like a martial art, develop a "muscle memory" that becomes so routine it is ingrained.
And, I think, too, in light of today's new perspective, I'm not an empty shell. There is a bit of confetti there in the bottom of the shell. ;)
An old soul, I have been told that myself a time or two. Meaning inner wisdom I think.
Even confetti in the beginning began as a whole. Maybe if Hexi is right and this is like a multiple personality disorder maybe this confetti is just a slice of each of these personalities. I'd like to think so.
Sorry for the delay in replies. I do chores in between replies. I'm a bit of a neat freak. I'm a stay at home and everyday there seems to be more and more to do.
An old soul, I have been told that myself a time or two. Meaning inner wisdom I think.
Even confetti in the beginning began as a whole. Maybe if Hexi is right and this is like a multiple personality disorder maybe this confetti is just a slice of each of these personalities. I'd like to think so.
Sorry for the delay in replies. I do chores in between replies. I'm a bit of a neat freak. I'm a stay at home and everyday there seems to be more and more to do.
I understand chores, all to well - HA! I can't stand clutter.
I don't want many personalities. I just want the one I'm supposed to have. (she says and stomps her foot like a petulant child)
Can't stand clutter either. Sadly everyone around me seems to like it. Grrr
Isn't this the place you have all been able to be yourselves. I don't see anything, but honesty.
I've always felt that it is a great cosmic joke that my soul mate is a pig. I don't know if I'm supposed to learn to relax or he's supposed to learn to tidy up. haha
There is some real honesty here, but there is a lot that is hidden and rather a large bit of crap sprinkled in here and there. I think that one real discovery is worth however much crap one must wade through, though, so it's all good.