First of all, I had a friend who suffered from Social Anxiety Phobia for many years, she always thought people were looking at her and when anybody laughed around her she always assumed they were laughing at her.
She underwent cognitive behavioural therapy with a psychotherapist, that probably the best choice as there isn't really anything anyone can say on here that would be a magic fix, everyone in life seeks simple soloutions to complex answers but unfortunately, they don't always exist.
So if I were you I would visit a proffesional.
Thank you Toby, I agree that professional help is best. I've already contacted a therapist but she could not schedule an appointment for me immediately, so I'm on a waiting list. I know there is not a magic fix or else I would have "cured" myself by now. I guess what I was really looking for when I posted this question, was some advice on how to reach out again, and whether or not it's a good idea to be honest with my friend J about the anxiety that I feel when we correspond. Or maybe I should keep the conversation superficial for a while and ease my way into a real friendship again? I am afraid of over-sharing and scaring her off.
I do intend to work on this with a therapist once I am able to get an appointment. Your post has reminded me that it's been several weeks since I last heard from the therapist that I contacted, and I am going to call her within the next few days to remind her about my request for an appointment. Thanks again for your reply.
Hello NC. I like Toby's response to you too.