You're not wasting my time. By helping you I am actually trying to help myself.

Yes. It is anxiety. I have panic attacks almost on a daily basis. I lose all air in my chest and start crying and crying. I shiver and cover myself with a blanket and moan. And then I pick myself up and find strength to finish my day. DON'T DO THAT TO YOURSELF, don't be me :(

I am considering taking another trip to the psychologist and I will if this thing progresses. I think about what if he felt that minute that i rubbed against him in his sleep. What if he was paralyzed and frightened and wanted the touching to stop. He assures me that he didn't. I can't even talk to my mother about it anymore cause she gets mad and tells me; how can you demonize a child's play to such extent. My brother held me yesterday while I cried and kept saying, everything is going to be ok. I hate doing this to him.