thank you for your reply, you make me sound so normal. I wrote as I am worried about the rush I get when thinking of these things, and am confused at the fact I may be having a wonderful conversation with some at the same time as picturing causing them serious harm or mutilation. But I am not a sociopath or what ever as I do have compassion for people, just not the ones around me. They don't deserve it. They are blind to the world, and they need to see what It really is. The things that worry people today are not what is real, I hate them, and want them all to feel pain, to hurt, to be corrected.
i think if you hate them, you won't have any difference with the others. hatred will make you go blind. i'm muslim but i like the sentence" forgive us our tresspasses as we forgive those who have tresspassed against us". you are unique. you know for years i tried to help others and teach them that smile is the only way to go blind just like the angel of justice. i tried my best and they just commited me some charges and i lost a life but you see now i'm here... you should forgive others and keep on trying. others need you and you need peace.