Alright so let me start off by saying I'm not quite sure if this makes me a sociopath it's just what has been on my mind and I was looking for answers. I don't want to go to see a therapist because by doing that it would ruin what I have tried so hard to keep hidden from the outside world and my mask would be revealed.
I have done research on the internet about sociopaths and found several similiarities in common. I have very few friends. Most of them just be acquaintances I see on occasion.I usually spend a majority of time in my room alone trapped within my thoughts.The few friends I have come to realize their friendship means nothing to me and if it is to end so be it.
So you could imagine how dating has been with my mindset. I have been in very few and very short relationships. I do want a relationship surprisingly enough but I think the only reason is because that would be considered normal and with that I'd fit in better and maintain my mask.
I have been accused of cruelty to animals for killing and over killing them.I do lie a lot more then I could have guessed to my parents and others to gain from them. I have intentionally manipulated and used mind games on others to hurt them just for the hell of it.
I know having a flat out answer of whether I am a sociopath won't change what I am. I know I am not normal no matter how clever my disguise is.I have come to terms and accepted that. I simply want to know if this is what makes me different.
No, you're not special and no, you're not a sociopath. You are average, one of the masses, an empty face on the street with nothing do distinguish you from the person walking next to you.
You are the light of this forum, you know that?
What do you mean by light?
It's sarcasm in most cases. However, we lack the ability to properly communicate in a forum setting without voice or visual cues.
Those subliminal messages are more important than what is said aloud.
Secretly she was confessing her loving fascination with Hexi and his rebel attitude. She hates him but feels a strange attraction to this untamed animal. She wants to break this horse like she breaks every other horse. Why? Because she's a leader! She's a alpha.
George Carlin was right. People really are boring. The only times they even get interesting is when they are in distress or dying. Even then, somehow, most of them manage to find the most undignified way of dying.. and then proceed to do it. You're 80 and you can't control bowel movements anymore. In Earth years you have already expired but you cling to life in a desperate attempt to avoid the inevitable oblivion that awaits you.