I originally sent this as an email to Dr. Roberts, he told me to ask on the forums, so here I am.
I think I am a psychopath, or otherwise "suffer" from an anti social personality disorder; I'd like a few external opinions.
I don't have a conscience. I feel no shame, guilt, or fear. I have no problem on doing whatever needs to be done. I don't care for just about anyone's wellbeing, and those who I care about, is mostly because replacing them would cost too much time/money or simply isn't possible. I excel at manipulating people, I always have. Everything about the world's "normality" has always looked broken and irrational in my eyes. I've never done anything without potential personal gain in sight.
As for love, I thought I was "inlove" at one point of my life... but, no. It was more like the relationship I have with my expensive material stuff: I take care of them because I know it would cost more to get another one than to care for the current one, I like them, after all, I bought them for a reason, and they have a defined lifetime after which they must be disposed of.
I have a few pets (2 snakes, 2 geckos, 3 cats, 1 turtle), and I know I couldn't get myself to do them harm even if I wanted to. On the other hand, the idea of doing unspeakable things to another human being makes me giggle a bit. I just hope I'm never in a position where doing so is viable.
On 2008, a very dear aunt and my father died, on both cases, the main thing on my mind was how it would impact my plans, schedule, and how I would need to pretend sorrow.
It is worth noting, I didn't really realize I was so different until a few days after my grandfather died. I don't know how to describe it but saying that some things just started "clicking", and all pieces fell into the right place. The rest, well, the rest is history.
I would appreciate brutal honesty, and I'm willing to answer any questions you may have if you think that will help you from a more informed opinion.
I'm not a proffesional, but It sounds to me like you indeed do have psychopathy, Im basing that on the fact you say you have no conscience, guilt, shame or fear. They're all common traits of psychopaths.
From what I had heard of psychopaths before I visited this site I was told exactly "Dont bother; they're evil incarnate" So as you can imagine I came here with a certain level of arrogance but I soon learned that there was nothing evil about them, nothing "Abnormal" and certainly nothing to be afraid of. So being psychopathic doesn't mean you have to be a bad person, and it certainly doesn't mean you have to hurt anybody.
Question - Do you ever worry about being psychopathic?
Don't know. I am, does it matter?
Hexy, No, it doesn't; but it would be nice to know for sure.
Toby, no, I like being the way I am. If you think about it, I tend to be the first one to react on emergencies, and I generally tend to succeed in most ventures.
It doesn't not matter...
It certainly sounds you are correct in your self-diagnosis of psychopthy, you have no conscience, no guilt so probably, Yes.
It's quite easy to test it, really. Use your imagination if you want to be sure.
I did that. Had I gotten any conclusive results, I wouldn't have asked. But then again, you already knew that.
Feel free to provide some examples.
I'm not nearly naive enough to endulge you.
I would have been a bit disappointed if you had given examples.
Instead, I bought a few books on psychopathic behavior.