All I really want to know is weather or not there is something wrong with me.
I may have trouble tying to explain but I shal try my best.
Firstly I feel fractured or divided my be the word, the different parts conflict. Part of me knows that I am human and fragile while the other part thinks I am an immortal and unable to die. I am willing to simply disregard my friends or use them for my own gain and keep them so I don't get lonely, Yet I keep them "sweet" and appear to show empathy not because I understand how they feel but because it is what is done. Many members of my family have died but I have never felt any real loss or had to grieve. Over the last 3 months I have watched a snake slowly die of starvation and dehydration, I felt no joy over the matter but no guilt or sorrow for the animal either yet I know that I should. I care little for anything and feel little passion for any activity, I feel positive emotions and have a somewhat sunny disposition most of the time but adversely violent thoughts come easily, I feel attraction towards women but am unsure weather or not it is genuine or desperation to not be alone while another part of me believes I do not deserve to be with someone and would be happy to live alone in a cave.