Just so you know, I spent half an hour writing out a thoughtful and detailed response, and then accidentally deleted it instead of submitting. I am now irritated at the internet, and, what with me being an inherently lazy person, you're going to have to suffice with the sparknotes version.
Firstly, yes, I do thing the difference in the way fear is experienced is a major part of the different cognitive functioning in a sociopath. This study - http://www.kcl.ac.uk/news/news_details.php?news_id=1137&year=2009 - I'm guessing you may be familiar with this one? Showed that "psychopaths" showed very little brain activity when shown pictures of scared faces than "healthy people". I suppose it is a part of the brain that doesn't function typically, but I think, once again, it is more complex than that.
And I wouldn't turn off this part of my brain, because to be honest, I think that would make me so lonely.
What you say about the "inner policeman" is so typical it is almost endearing. Yes, I do fear social rejection, and anyone who believes that they do not often steer towards "right" because they want to avoid guilt would be in denial - but, as you have probably observed, we humans are very good at lying to ourselves. I don't like wrong. I don't like being wronged, I don't like seeing people wronged, I don't like the idea of people suffering in general. I don't want to be good to people because of the negative implications (i.e. guilt) of acting otherwise, but because I want good things for other people. There is no policeman. There is just me.
As for being with a sociopath - there is so much to say on the matter, and nothing at all. I'm guessing you understand what might be positive about the relationship - the thrill, the charm, the ability to make me feel special/ I think the thing to say about it is that I have little doubt that he loves me as much as he is capable of loving anything, has never been anything except adoring (at least intentionally, this far) and genuinely cares for my emotional well-being. He puts me above everything in the world except himself, which is more than most people can say of their relationships.
There are negatives, of course. Partly, it's incredibly infuriating when he does things to hurt myself or others and doesn't even realise that his actions might upset people. He will do or say something, and I will be shocked or hurt or disgusted, and this will upset him, so I have to try to explain everything to him in terms that he can understand. And he is upset that he has upset me, because he doesn't like doing that, but still doesn't feel guilty about it. It's incredibly frustrating - sometimes I get a feeling that I'd be better off drawing sadfaces and smileyfaces to express how I'm feeling than use my actual emotions.
I suppose I would see things differently if I were older. I'm nowhere near an age where I should be considering finding a life-partner. I understand that the relationship will not end well, that due to his nature there is nothing permanent about it.
The truth is, that I love him for what he is and how he makes me feel. Which is something I never thought I would be able to say about a sociopath. And it's difficult, and challenging, but he makes me feel alive, which to me is really quite refreshing. I have accepted that this probably means there's something wrong with my own psychological make up. I'm not sure. It's tough and amazing. I'm having fun.
Anyway, glad I can offer some insights. All of this just fascinates me, really. Out of interest, how do you handle romantic relationships with empaths? I shared, it's only fair that you do.
Hey Hannah, nice to have read your input, you're smart. I too await Daniel's reply to your question.
Good thread. Nice writing, Hannah:
"it sounds terribly lonely. A bit like a game of hide and seek where you never get found - sure, you win, but everyone else has gone outside to play while you're savoring your victory in a laundry basket."
i just wanted to add my thoughts about fear.
fear is a thing you need when you get out of your comfort zone. but its an emotion, that you can transform into some kind of having high energy. fear is a thing that developed and protected us when we were cavern humans, we wanted to go for some food for our family, but there was a big lion there outside, and the fear was the thing that helped us to survive and not being eaten by the lion. later we used that fear to get angry, smarter, stronger and kill the lion. also in some cultures you used to get murdered when you took a woman from some group. so the fear was the thing that prevented you to get murdered. that fear in someway got into our genetics and we live with it.
but now things are different, but the fear is still there. the purpose of the fear is not longer there in a lot of things (basically what im saying is that the fear helps you survive) nothing is going to happen if you talk to strange people (most of the time).
I did something today that could get me into a fair amount of trouble if I had been caught and I won’t be going into any details for obvious reasons. I wasn’t caught of course. But I noticed that my body was doing the slight increase in heart rate thing and I had to take deeper breaths. I also noticed the thoughts that appeared within my mind while these physiological changes were occurring. I asked myself if I was feeling afraid? I sat with it for a moment. The answer was no because there was a sense of pleasure as well. I decided that I was excited by the exercise of freedom I was experiencing while deliberately breaking the rules. It’s akin to duping delight. I can see how one can get “addicted” to the rush that comes with playing outside of the rules. I can also see how people might think of me as “fearless” if they did what I did today and all they ended up doing was taking a couple of deep breaths in response to mild excitement.
My reason for bringing this episode up was to emphasize the increase in heart rate and change in breathing I experienced, which I used to associate with fear. Now I think those symptoms are just generalized, all purpose arousal signs, which, if I understand the others who contributed to this thread correctly, is not fear as it is commonly experienced. Fear appears to be a far more complex experience than the basic fight/flight/freeze (FFF) response. It is this complexity that I (and perhaps you?) am missing. Then again, I also suspect that how those base physiological responses show up vary from person to person depending on his/her genetic makeup. If fear is more than the basic FFF response, then one could say that for all practical purposes, “we” are fearless. I said that before in a previous comment, but I don’t know if I believe that. After all, I still experience physical changes in the presence of a perceived threat. That’s good enough to call fear I think, even if the complex cognitive aspect is missing. So my tentative conclusion is that this is the real difference between those without much of a conscience and those who have normal consciences with regard this question. We are missing whole levels of rumination in relation to fear and quite frankly our FFF response dial is turned down in comparison to the norm. Not off. Just down.
Anyway Diego, I think your comments are for the most part on point, although I would merely add that the roots of fear must extend further back in our evolutionary history since many other animal species exhibit physiological signs (FFF response) that we associate with fear also. And I also think you are correct to point out that the original reasons for installing the FFF response in all of us are no longer operative in modern society. Fear is useful to be sure, otherwise none of us would have it.
god did created FEAR. what i DOES be interested is BE that you cans WIN fear with other EMOTION does you THINK that be? THEM does like LOVE or ANGRYNESS and then yours can even BEND steel sometimes if you DOES gets angry enough.
what YOUR opinions is?
Seriously Lega, comprehending what you are saying is difficult. So I am going to go ahead and translate what I think you are saying and respond to that. You are saying that god created fear (easy enough). Then you move to ask if fear can be managed and/or overcome with other emotions. And perhaps you are concluding with a question about the strength of other potentially overpowering emotions, like love or anger.
What is my opinion? Obviously I do not believe in any kind of god. Emotions have their origin, like everything else considered human, in our evolutionary history. Believing in a god and evolution is not necessarily a contradiction in terms, by the way. It often is in practice, however. Do I think fear can be overcome using other emotions? You know what? I don’t think so. I think a person can rapidly switch between emotions, like anger or excitement and fear, but I don’t know if the fear response can be completely turned off using other feelings. I’m talking about the basic FFF response and not anxiety or lighter versions of fear. And finally, are other emotions stronger than fear… Actually, I’d say no for the most part. My guess is that no emotion overcomes fear once it gets going because nothing truly overcomes our natural instinct towards self preservation. Fear is tied to our will to survive at almost all costs. And by self preservation, I am also referring to the genes. Genes are what survive from one generation to the next in the form of copies and to that end, parents and other relatives are programmed to at least be willing to sacrifice themselves to preserve those copies (children).
your DOESNT actualy believe in that EVOLUTION JUNK? you should READS this
AND also in MINE parts LOVE and ANGRYNESS can overcomes fear. for EXAMPLES when i DID watched one HOROR movie and where did BAD MENS killed people i did THINK scared but then i DID thinked they be ACTUALY just SAD peoples who done gotted HURTS. then i did NOT scared anymore.
and ONE TIME when did peoples WITH KNIFES tryed robbing PEOPLES i did SCARED first but then i DID thinked their is gona DO that SAME things to everyone and GETS very angry and kicked their ASSES and did gived them to POLICE.
What a trip
He's going to "cure" you.
You're infected! Like a zombie.
What if we get possessed by the devil? Can that be cured? Or wait... perhaps we are?
your DOSENT be INFECTED or does be DEVIL possesed. YOUR does spirit has HURTED and that MUST does HEALED. sory i DOESNT know how else to EXPLAINS it but you MUSTS believes me. ACTUALY does one CAN says your DOES be posesed by the DEVIL but it not actualy POSESSED by devil only DOES in SYMBOL.
if YOURS dosent interested in CHURCH or OTHER RELIGION THING then maybe DOES talks to YOURS family about it? i DOESNT knows if that DOES helps as well as THEM talking to GOD does but maybe does GIVES it try?